Friday, 4 January 2013

The Fear!!!!

Being sick for this few days, I feel like back to babyhood, my mum taking care of me like baby, except carry me up since I'm taller and bigger than her...LOL

My mum usually like to nag and complain about us, but when we are sick or what she instantly back to instinct motherhood...full of warmness and caring. This make realize why I so afraid of coming out to my mum. After reading Rick's post, it made me think about it seriously too. Maybe I worry and scare that once my mum know my true self, she won't treat me in the same way again.

Maybe I read too many sad cases from gays' coming out and think too much, but I can't avoid this kind of thought. I'm sure many gays also afraid of that, and that's why very hard to open mouth say "Dad..Mum..I'm gay." I really can't imagine how my mum going to react, as for my dad I think he can accept it quite fast same as my second brother too...well at least faster than my mum.

Being sick really makes me got a lot of spare time to think many things by staring at the ceiling..LOL I guess when we are born, the journey is already not easy to go, especially hit on puberty. The more clearer your difficult pathway going to be.

 Luckily got blog to express my feeling and thought, and met some awesome hiao bitches [you know who you are ; )] at least my difficult journey got them...









15 comments:

  1. There are lot of coming-out story that ended well but it is just in our nature to think of the worst case scenario coz once it's out, there's no more taking it back.

    Ah well...anything, we are around to give support(and some spank xP) hehehe

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    1. Ya. I know there are many happy ending too.

      Aww..you deserve my hug *HUG* ; )

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  2. Try to take it step by step ..
    For my case, my mum knows about my sexuality and the present of my the other half. She did scold me, and trying to deny. But whenever she could't contact me ,she will call my BF.It's kinda like slowly letting her to get used to the present of my BF.


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    1. Really!!! So nice..I can foresee your bright future!! =D I think I'm going to tell her before I got bf?? but hard to follow what you planned..hmmm

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  3. tke good care of urself okayyyy

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    1. You too..come come let's have support hug *HUG*

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  4. am i 1 of those hiao bitches?*flips hair*

    My mum is the same like that:D

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    1. You ar..still underexamined..LOLLL

      You mean your mum like which part? The motherhood or coming out part?? xD

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    2. underexamined?huh?

      the motherhood partXD

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  5. I don't think there's any need to rush into coming out.. Certainly don't need to feel pressured to do it... If you're not ready, means it's better not to, unless you're prepared to face the potential consequences..

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    1. Yes is really nothing to rush..just think that someday I will tell them the truth..imagine the consequences..well just live on present first!! xD

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  6. It takes time.

    But then, somehow I think they just know. We can't hide it, especially from our parents.

    :)

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    1. Especially you grow older and don't have any girlfriend..LOL

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  7. Get well soon!

    And don't rush coming out to anyone. Do it when you feel like it's the right time.

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    1. Thanks!!! =D

      I will wait the right time =)

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