Being sick for this few days, I feel like back to babyhood, my mum taking care of me like baby, except carry me up since I'm taller and bigger than her...LOL
My mum usually like to nag and complain about us, but when we are sick or what she instantly back to instinct motherhood...full of warmness and caring. This make realize why I so afraid of coming out to my mum. After reading Rick's post, it made me think about it seriously too. Maybe I worry and scare that once my mum know my true self, she won't treat me in the same way again.
Maybe I read too many sad cases from gays' coming out and think too much, but I can't avoid this kind of thought. I'm sure many gays also afraid of that, and that's why very hard to open mouth say "Dad..Mum..I'm gay." I really can't imagine how my mum going to react, as for my dad I think he can accept it quite fast same as my second brother too...well at least faster than my mum.
Being sick really makes me got a lot of spare time to think many things by staring at the ceiling..LOL I guess when we are born, the journey is already not easy to go, especially hit on puberty. The more clearer your difficult pathway going to be.
Luckily got blog to express my feeling and thought, and met some awesome hiao bitches [you know who you are ; )] at least my difficult journey got them...