Saturday, 29 November 2014

Nothing means Nothing?

Again, let me clean the dust on my blog first *blowing*. It has been 2 weeks after the last post. Nothing special happened, or maybe it's happening..haha.

One day I did something to my friend.

Me: I got something can make you happy. Just give me your hand.

She: What?! Erm..okay.

Me: *Grab something from pocket, and put on her palm*

She: *Saw nothing on palm* Hahaha..stupid!! There's nothing.

Me: No! I made you smiled, so it's not nothing.

Maybe it's lame, but when think about it. When we doing something passionately, and giving all our efforts on it. In the end, we said there's nothing we get. Is it true? Sometimes when we say we get nothing, actually it just means we didn't get something we want only.

When we use another point of view to look at it, we actually learn or got something from it. It may seems not a good thing, but I believe it will make us become a better person or at least know how to differentiate what's good for us.

Just like relationship, we definitely have learned something from those past relationship. Happy or not, those still made you who you are now. Some people take longer time to learn, as they keep repeating the same mistake. However, the day still will come, and they know how to let go and become stronger. Those are painful experiences, but they can't stop us to know what we want.

Try to be optimistic, I would say destiny or God  (whatever is it), giving us all the hard times, so that we are ready for the one or having a better life. Some are blessed as don't have so much hard times, some just need go through a lot and a lot, to test their patience & persistence. 

Saw an interesting quote. "No matter how deep you have been hurt, there will be a person appears in your life, who makes you forgive how bad life has treated you."

Need learn to let go =)

Wednesday, 12 November 2014


Not sure what am I going to write is link to It's a song name that I in love of. xD Okay straight to the point, Bryan and I didn't work out again..LOLL

I know it's super fast, but we know we can't control it. He said he likes me but (there's always a BUT after it!!) something is just missing that he think we won't work out in the end. I was glad to hear that he was be honest with me. 

Maybe I also can understand him because it's what I felt and did to my first ex. I liked him but didn't really think I can love him. That's why I very fast put a stop on our relationship. Guess Karma is a bitch, now I'm the one who have to go through this and accept it.

Oh well, I guess this time I will just enjoy being single first. Sometimes it's very tiring to know new guys again and again, try this and that, think how to impress la..blah blah blah.

Anyways, let's talk about my trip. ; ) I went to Shanghai and OMG you can find good looking guys everywhere even those guys working at immigration or custom counter. However, if you prefer guys with nice body then maybe it's not your Many of them are slim or average body, and those muscular guys are quite hard to be seen.

Of course plu also a lot at there, and my gaydar constantly got signal..LOL especially in the Metro Train Station ; ) As typical formal shirt fetish, my eyes couldn't stop looking at those office attire guys. They really know how to suit up!! I purposely chose rush hours because there is the time, many office attire guys!!  Hahahaha

Did I use Jackd? Well, all those gay apps we use cannot really function well, super super slow. Hence, they have their own gay app called Zank if I'm not mistaken. Surprisingly a lot of hot body guys on the apps, and I wonder whether they don't come out from house because hardly see hot body guys walking on street.

Did I find someone or meet new guy? Nope. I just so lazy and super tired 

(To be continue)