Is being gay just part of life only? You still like ordinary person..study or work, finding love, eat, sleep, social..etc. Does it incluences you whole parts of life??
Well, to me I have no idea, I still the one I used to be, just that gained a lot experiences that I couldn't imagine. Accepted myself as gay did affect some part of me, I became more outgoing a bit and not sure bad or not...also bitchy a bit..LOL
Also want to improve my appearance to attract same sex but not opposite..lol We like some kind of birds where the males are the one with beautiful feather to attract mates ; )
However, at some point, I start to doubt what is being gay? Of course everyone got different answer but do we have some general guideline??? Everytime, when people ask what is my plan for my future, I always don't know how to answer. I have no idea what my future going to be or to be more precise...I don't know what I want in the future.
Finding true love? Well, that one I don't put it as a very large part in my life. I also want other things too..something that when I'm old sitting on a moving chair and looking back my life...I will just smile and close my eyes.
Maybe I'm still young and many things have to explore first. We are growing and learning in every step on the way of our journey.
Sometimes you are the one who decide what kind of journey you want while not waiting fate come to you.
|Well, there is always a light of hope for you. Just don't give up.|