Sunday, 24 March 2013

Heartbreaker...

Continue from last post ....I finally decided to talk with Alvin about all the things, and to end our relationsip.

I went to his place without informed him and he was quite surprise and happy at the same time. I'm that kind of can't hide thing, so he ver fast noticed something wrong with me.

I told him everything...what I feel..what I have decided. When I was telling him, he said he kind of knew this going to happen and already started crying. I know it's cruel, but I want make thing clear so I continue talking.....

Of course, during that time, there were a lot of Q & A for us..he asked a lot of whys and wanted to know more. He also tried something to see can make me change my mind, but for what I reacted he finally realized I really decided and confirm for it.

He just asked me to give him last hug and then he cried out loud..like really loud. My sense of guilt totally magnified until I couldn't control. When I was leaving, he was calm down but still could see the tear still running.

After I back home, he texted me he was okay now, just hope we still can be close friends. From all the messages, I can see that he still hope one day I will have feeling for him and go back to him, but I don't want give false hope to him. Hence, I just said can be friends but not sure about close friends. Just follow the flow.

I have been emo for past few days.....and of course next few days too. I never expected everything happened so fast...started fast and ended up fast. I would become  heartbreaker.....I always thought I will the one being hurt....

Life!! Sigh......maybe next time is my turn since I believe in Karma...

8 comments:

  1. it's good to come clean and cut before any misunderstanding goes deeper.

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    1. Ya..that's why I did it quickly..=(

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  2. nah, u have not wrong him in any way at all. When this all started, u already told him beforehand that it might not work and it just based on ur liking towards him, nothing more than that.

    Take ur time to heal. Not only him was hurt in the heart-breaking process.

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    1. Ya..I know we already said beforehand it may not work but still....sigh

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  3. Shin Yong, I feel sorry for both of you. Perhaps, this is part of growing up. During the process, we keep moving on no matter how many times we fall. This is life. We keep falling and getting up until we attain wisdom. Take your time to heal. I also hope you and Alvin can still be friends.

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    1. Thank you so much!! =) and..ya we are still friends.

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  4. At least there's a decision being made in the early stage rather than continue with the relationship unanswered.

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    1. Ya..I need decide as fast as possible so don't waste each other time

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