Heartbreaker...

Continue from last post ....I finally decided to talk with Alvin about all the things, and to end our relationsip.

I went to his place without informed him and he was quite surprise and happy at the same time. I'm that kind of can't hide thing, so he ver fast noticed something wrong with me.

I told him everything...what I feel..what I have decided. When I was telling him, he said he kind of knew this going to happen and already started crying. I know it's cruel, but I want make thing clear so I continue talking.....

Of course, during that time, there were a lot of Q & A for us..he asked a lot of whys and wanted to know more. He also tried something to see can make me change my mind, but for what I reacted he finally realized I really decided and confirm for it.

He just asked me to give him last hug and then he cried out loud..like really loud. My sense of guilt totally magnified until I couldn't control. When I was leaving, he was calm down but still could see the tear still running.

After I back home, he texted me he was okay now, just hope we still can be close friends. From all the messages, I can see that he still hope one day I will have feeling for him and go back to him, but I don't want give false hope to him. Hence, I just said can be friends but not sure about close friends. Just follow the flow.

I have been emo for past few days.....and of course next few days too. I never expected everything happened so fast...started fast and ended up fast. I would become  heartbreaker.....I always thought I will the one being hurt....

Life!! Sigh......maybe next time is my turn since I believe in Karma...