The Right Moment 对的时刻

Song from local artist also can be very nice. Love it~

Sometimes feel like it's hard to meet the right person at the right moment.

冰凍的Latte 
心不對味
誰錯過了
陽光明媚
愛情的滋味？

曼陀林天南地北
我的心對了位
蔚藍的天空 
憂鬱紛飛
誰掉的眼淚？

Maybe some other time
對的人對的告白
海天一色
相對無言
沉默的黃昏 

對的時刻非你不可
牽掛的只有一個
兩個人想說的事
留到下一次

溫熱的咖啡
苦澀的滋味
我在回味
你的氣味
呼吸也甜美

曼陀林天南地北
我的心對了位
蔚藍的天空 
憂鬱紛飛
誰掉的眼淚？

Maybe some other time
對的人對的告白
海天一色
相對無言
沉默的黃昏 
對的時刻非你不可
牽掛的只有一個
兩個人想說的事
留到下一次

你說話吧 
我正在聆聽
但欲言又止
時機已過 
要說的沒說 
對的人
對的時刻
等下一次

 Maybe some other time
We could stroll along the beach
And lose ourselves without a care
In somewhere out of reach
I hope by the time we meet again
I’ll be rid of this leech
That’s pulling me back in a chain
Ripping the life out of me
我和你相愛的事 
就在下一次

Move on Fast Means?

I always wonder is there any certain timing for move on. How long considered normal or too much? Is move on fast means you didn't love your ex that much? You are very hard to move on means you really love your ex so much?

Ask 10 people, you might get 10 different answers. Like my bestie said is all depends on that individual and how he/she perceive it.

To me, move on means let go myself from the past witohut keep dwelling in it. I know it's impossible to forget someone you love. However, how you see and feel for that person is within your control.

If you ask me how I feel for Sean. Now my answer is I still love him but not that kind of way it used to be anymore. No one can replace him because it's unique memories between us yet it just became part of memories. Maybe if I bump into I won't say Hi, but now I slowly realize one day I will able to say hi or even give a friendly hug.

For someone, it takes very long time for them to move on while some are just need few weeks can move on and welcome new chapter. Nothing wrong to do either but just make sure you are really move on to welcome a new person go inside your heart witohut hurting him.

There are also some people realize they are happier being single. Well, that's also good way to live on, but also need to be caution whether you really love being single or just follow trend or influenced by others.

Your Preference?

Someone told me before, preference is important in relationship. The guy you are in love need to match or meet your preferences only the relationship can last. If the guy you are falling in love is not your preference, there is a chance you will lose interest on him, when you meet another guy who is totally your preferences. That's what people concern about.

However, what really preference means to you? Is preference just appearance?? When you ask me, my answer would be mature guy and it is even better if he got nice muscular body. I thought that's all about preference.

Until I met Jeremy (was called him as James in previous post but Jeremy suit him more xD), I understand what is the most important preference to me. Someone I can talk very well to and feel very comfortable with. Yes, appearance is important too, but it's going to last longer than personalities and inner side of that person?

Jeremy is a cute and consider good looking guy, but he doesn't match my shallow preference - mature guy or actually it's just macho look..lol I was just randomly click on his profile and started chat with him because I was so bored at that time..haha.

Then, I didn't expect we would chat so long until late night even though it's the first time we chat. Funny part was after that night, we still didn't know each other's basic info like from where, doing what for life...blah blah. I have no idea what we have talked about, just too many things including nonsense things xD.

After some times, few things were found out and quite surprised us, we were from same Uni, have  mutual friend, same gym. Small world. Now, we are talking to each other almost everyday.

Nonetheless, my bestie advised me to take things slow, which I totally agree. I still not sure what is my feelings and this time I will give more times for myself to know that person well first, before going further any stage. Jeremy also doing the same thing as I know he has a very painful past which I can't compare with.   
 
We will see how it goes, hope everything goes well. Before that, I need to prepare for my trip first ; ) So excited about travel alone!!! xD 

Jeremy looks like him. I mean his hairstyle..LOL

  

I Was Wrong

Forgot about my blog for so long, I have been busying with work. I really slowly getting married with work, everyday spend almost 13 hours at work. Ya..I think I know why I became like this.

It's a month plus after Sean, but I feel like it has been so long ady. I know in the previous post, I seems like almost can move on for better. However, I realized actually I still not really moved on, and maybe not ready to open my heart for anyone.

Well, I kind of back to the scene that I used to be..ya slut. LOL However, surprisingly I didn't meet up with anyone because either people not interested or I'm not interested. We all are so picky..haha

I able to talk with few guys, and some are just not match or can't hold the conversation for long. Only one guy until now still talking with him, let's called him James.  Everytime I feel so happy and comfortable talking to him, and keep chatting for hours and hours. He is not really my type, but we are in same wavelength, which allows us to talk non-stop.

To Sean & The End

Dear Sean,

Finally I got courage to write this to you. It have been a while, not sure how are you. I'm okay now but I want to write what in my mind.

Cut it short, I know you tried to minimize the hurt but what have you done really the way hurt me the most, especially I knew the truth. Maybe what I writing now is not all true, but this time I want to be selfish once because I am tired of blaming myself.

Regardless of all those things, I still no regret met and loved you in my life. I have learned a lot from you and at least grown up a little bit. However, I still who I am and nothing can change me. I will still carry the same way to see relationship and love. That's my belief and I wish I able to find someone have same thought like me, and for you too.

Letting you go is the best thing I can do for myself and you also. I'm ready go to for another chapter of my life, and hope you so or I guess you already started earlier than me..haha.

I not sure we still can be friend after all these happened, maybe I know in the end we will become friend again but just really a friend only. I wish you all the best, and accomplish what you want in life. =)

Here I also want to say thank you very much to few people, especially my bestie. She really supported me a lot. Can't forget to mention Mr Shadow Wind and Soulchild, love you all. Friendship is awesome!! Oh, and Mr Tuls as well, you really a nice guy and handsome boy!! lol xD

From 

Shin

 Edited the lyrics because it should be positive =)

還是好朋友 都只是藉口 安慰的話別說
不如保持沉默 離開了都別回頭
當我們不再為愛歌頌 揮霍說好的夢
曾依賴的手 已不再溫柔 我還能要甚麼

我從來都不想自由
一個人過的簡單 也許輕鬆 卻還是寂寞
多希望再被愛感動 幸福都只剩空白
但未來畫面多精彩 是非常值得期待
   

LOST

There are people don't know what they want in their life, and might just live freely without any purpose until the end of their life. There are also people know what exactly they want and used their whole life to achieve that dream or goal. Do you know what you want or found any purpose of your life?

To be honest, I still don't know what am doing now is what I want even though I'm satisfied almost everything in term of working, relationship and etc. One day, my boss called me and had a talk with me. She said I'm lost and don't know what I want. According to her, it's something personal that I need to overcome by myself if not anywhere I go will still be the same....LOST.

Not showing off but I know I have been living comfortably since I born because my dad settle everything. I no need to worry about no car, no place to live when I live by myself, no money to spend when jobless etc. However, is it a good thing for me? I used to have a thought giving up everything, and go to a new place without any support of my dad. Can I really survive? or do I really willing to leave my comfort zone?

My dad also encourage me to be more independence because maybe when he getting older and older. He is the one who need my support for living, I can't rely on him every single time. I also used to have dream which is join those volunteer organizations and go around the world or locally help those people who needed help the most. However, I thought that dream is a bit unrealistic for me because knowing myself, I don't think I can handle and live that kind of life.   

 Maybe I had that dream because I felt like need to do something meaningful in life.

For love life, of course I got complaints yet sweet memories at the same time. Sean rarely shares what in his mind, so sometimes I also feel lost about what are we now. Is he still happy spending time with me? or blah blah blah....but I know it will go endlessly if I keep ruminating like this. Holding advice from my friend, we will never know what happen next, so I just appreciate and value all the things I have including him. Maybe I know one thing I want in life is him so put too much thought on him while he knows most of the things he wants so our priority is a bit different.   

Hence, I need find out what I want from other parts of my life and put more effort on them. Life is not just about love, I have my own life need to work on too. Think properly about my future, and find a better way to be more independence and looking for right direction of life.

Find your purpose of life and rock the world!!! xD

 

Things Learnt From Sean

Well..well time flies, Sean and I have been together more than one year. We didn't do anything for our anniversary, and I think Sean didn't even realize it was. Don't know..he is like doesn't like celebration even his birthday. I wrote a lovely note to him and he did nothing. To be honest, I felt a bit upset but that is him who I love, nothing to complain just accept it. Okay la.. at least he got replied a short sentence with sweet words for my note, I feel satisfied.

By saying that, I actually learnt few things from Sean or in our relationship..

1. Always need to have backup plan because he has the ability to make my plan or surprise fail. It's a good thing though because I can apply in my workplace. Now I got the habit always think of plan B.

2. The beauty of distance. He is busy most of the time and we hardly can spend nice time together, but I realized being together doesn't have to stick together all the time. Sometimes, we need to spend our times for others. We are just part of each other's life not as whole.  The feeling of excitement is great when seeing him after some times.